Its quite strange how things can change in a year, looking back at past choices, past decisions, this time without regret, just a calm knowledge that you're smarter for it. Smarter in choices of friends, choices of actions, choices of attitudes.
Who would guess last year that right now I'd be sitting next to Vong, happily enjoying a game of Catan or D&D? He was the one person I never got along with last year, (I'm man enough to admit the main reason, perhaps the only reason, being that he stood a far better chance of getting together with Xin Yu then I ever did, funny thing is he never did, neither did I, and we can look back on that and laugh) Well, I can, I still don't know him well enough, so I can't say he harbors some grudge, I know I would, and it's quite humbling that he's still willing to be the better man.
Or maybe it just shows how immature I was last year, that my actions were of small note to him, and easily forgiven, perhaps even inconsequential. New friends were made, and instead of playing dota, I play board games, the only constant being that me and Luxian are still fast friends. I don't really know how I would imagine life without him, in a totally non gay way ;). It's just... normalcy, even the kitchen people in IH picked up that we were thick as thieves, yet its funny how I disliked him at the start of last year.
I must admit I do have abit of a inferiority complex towards Luxian and Vong, Luxian because he is everything I want to be, good at sports and talented at music, while being a nice guy, something I have to try very hard to be at times, and Vong is perhaps an improved version of me. A better artist by far, more charismatic than I am, more wise. It's very frightening I suppose, when someone is effortlessly better than you at something you pride yourself at, its sometimes a struggle not to feel threatened by his continued presence, yet our discussions are something I now take great pleasure in. Vong if you do ever read this, (lord knows I hope you don't), just want you to know I do respect you, and hope I have at least reached your level of maturity when I'm that old ;) jokes)
Luxian said something that amused me very greatly the other night, that he had an inferiority complex with me, he said he wished he was as "wise" as I was, haha.... after my actions last year, how could I ever be mistaken for as wise? I can theologise and spout crap out my mouth with the best of them, but wise... heh... my char has wisdom 18! I do admit I feel far more comfortable now though, having moved out of IH has given me the space I need, while still giving me the freedom to go back and socialise, truly the best of both worlds.
On a lighter note, I recently went to see Coheed and Cambria live, they were fucking awesome. So awesome I shall now call them CFC, Coheed Fuckin Cambria. Not only is Claudio's hair the biggest thing I have ever seen on a person's head, he can play the guitar so smoothly :], and it's an awesome experience when you see fans singing along with the band, and the band allowing them to sing key parts for them. The Pink Floyd'esque guitar battle on the Camper Velorium IV, the 7 minute drum solo that followed, then slipping right back into the ending, it was beautiful. Coheed Fuckin Cambria, I'd see you live again, anytime anywhere. Best part about unpopular unknown bands is that concert tickets are so cheap. 50 dollars for good seats as opposed to 150 for nosebleeds at a more popular artistes concert. heh, no contest... anyways, till next time... ciaozor
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